December 2011
38 posts
Defenestrations: Words are redundant. →
jayarrarr:
You said I love you And I said Don’t tell me — Show me.
Show me by doing That thing I hate doing Because you know I hate doing it.
Show me by breaking The small blocks in my path So I can take care of the big ones.
Show me by singing Me to sleep And waking me with coffee.
Show me
no Im just making a big deal out of nothing
anons are just cowards…
with the truth, right?
am I too much of a try-hard?
I feel really worthless at the moment
but I try really hard not to be….
this sucks
I’m getting really worked up over nothing
so
fucking
dissapointed in myself
regarding
emotions toward
you.
asshole.
I’ll say that and try not to take it back.
that’s a start,
right?
look at that
will you look at that
my hands are like oceans
my heart is beating fast
and my head is woozy
my breaths are coming out in short little bursts
my stomachs a little light as well
all because you called me
will you look at that
it was a tragedy
crying my freaking eyes out
I wish I had a boyfriend to watch that with me and for me to cry on
but I have a butt ugly crying face
lol I have an ugly face in general
Do you ever feel like the back-up friend?
The one that they hit up when everybody else bails out on them. The one they hit up only when they need something. The one they hit up when nobody else wants to talk. Always the back-up, never the first priority? Yeah, it sucks.
jesus christ I’m such an over emotional faggot
I need a replacement word for faggot
how about twerp
my posts are all about me and my internal conflicts
well that’s good I don’t post where people I talk about can see it
so maybe I should just use names instead of vague pronouns
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it’s anyone but me, huh
well then fuck you I’ll start to try forgetting you
besides I don’t need someone like you
you were just a rebound.
yeah that’s right
you’re annoying
fat
and ugly
oh my dear god what am I saying
watch mw turn around and love you the instant you talk to me again
no I won’t
you disgust me
fuck you
you’re ignoring me on purpose
lol you cunt
I hate you
no I don’t think I can
lol I have issues
yeah okay
Im hurt that I’m dont mean anything to you anymore
what did I do wrong?
or even, what did I do?
we just drifted apart a little bit
I wish I was still special to you
I wish I could be the one you went to for all your problems
I wish we were what we were before
I miss you
I miss you and your annoying fagginess
but even with that
I was special to you
you trusted me then...
why do i think i'm always right
rhetorical question,
let’s not dwell on it
let’s try to change that fact
failing a test is so humbling
stating facts doesn’t give you the right to not try to change them
so we’re progressing
how do i change myself
i’m not humble at all
i am narrow minded, you can’t believe how much i think im the only one thats right
i can’t blame it on my parents
as much as i want to
its not, the right thing to do.
and its just me shirking away from all my deficiencies.
i want to change
i need to try, to try to be a better person.
all those times i try to show off my intelligence, to show off how...
okay no lie, I was a little disappointed when you didn’t come home with me today.
maybe not a little.
maybe a lot.
oh do my eyes quickly avert themselves when i look at you?
pardon my instinct,
they like to avoid being open windows into my thoughts.
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I handle criticism way too poorly
I will never be able to get over what anyone says poorly about me
no matter what tough “fuck you” facade I have,
what you say will never leave my mind.
it will fester and spread slimy tentacles for a while
then it’ll rot and become a permanent stain with mold growing on it, just waiting for those perfect moments to come out of hibernation...
ugh
my heart still catches when i see a message from you
but i know you don’t have the same feelings toward me anymore
and im trying to act like i don’t either
just for your sake
fuck you
it's even sadder these are my own grandparents.
god you think you’re so on top of shit
i mean wow.
you could be the next real god or something.
really.
you have to be fucking me.
i mean of course you don’t going around saying that,
i would love you if you did.
but it’s your attitude
how you talk
how you treat things
dear lord it is truly unnerving.
learn some modesty for chrissake.
(just emphasizing the...
i hate you
i love you
i hate you
i love you
i think about you all the time
why can’t i just have moderate feelings for you?
wow
everything i complain about
is
totally hypocritical
ugh
don’t blow the problem out of proportion
i mean seriously
it’s a small thing
don’t make such a big deal out of it
the sky isn’t going to fall
i'm really cold. my cheapass madre won't turn the...
no but she’s cool; training me for the elements -__-
is tumblr all about followers now?
i mean
what happened to good ol’ blogging
and shit
without caring what other people thought of you
if they thought of you
and if you were important or not.
isn’t that what the social outcasts were here for?
to feel somewhat important
to a silent, anonymous audience that silently...
you know what
i’m painting my nails naranza and turquoise right after my piano recital
because i’m a rebellious motherfucker like that
badddasssssssss
okay so like
everyone sucks